seeing the world with through Christ

I've always wondered how we are to view the world.
As a christian, that is.
I mean, how are we to find the balance between not being "of the world" and yet not being aloof, proud and judgemental?
For some lucky folk like my older sister, they can easily find the balance. they are endowed with the amazing and wonderful ability to look past the faults of the people around them and see what's good, what's true and what's pure, and love them for those sweet and wonderful parts of them. People like them were made to comfort the world, and to be examples to people like me. I think i belong to the class of people who float through life deluding herself about the faults of others only to find out and feel all hurt and betrayed. According to my mother, i belong to the class of "highly sensitive" people. And it is true, though i am beginning to change, thanks to daily devotion, post-its and friends. And the countless role-models that are peppered throughout my life that make me see what i can be, and what God wants for me.
So i am beginning to learn the Art of gem-hunting. To look at humanity and see it's faults, but not judge it, but instead to treasure the small flecks of goodness that catch the sun and make a plain rock alluring. It's just like gold panning. You stand in the river and sift the dirt away, just for that teeny weeny bit of pure gold inside. And just think, a small amount of gold can make life rich, whereas it would take a whole lot of dirt to harm you.
I guess it would be easier just to angst away in a small corner and cry, hating the world for it's faults, and wishing that we could go thorugh life unscathe by the "fiery dartsof the devil". But i thought about doing that and realised that i would be rather stupid to do that. Cos if i were to curl up into a ball, and aht the world, all that hate would just build up in me, and one day i'd implode, or explode from the stress of keeping so much grudges. i mean, it's like being mad 24 hours... and that's like volatile. you'd be like this huge boulder rolling down a slope, and everyone would just run away from you. Then you'd get even more hurt that people were ignoring you and it'd just go on and on until you commit suicide. And when you do, you'll go to hell and spend eternity regreting that you'd spent your life hating the world.
From the biblical point of view, the key to being joyful always would be to view the world through the eyes of Christ. And to do it the "Christ way" would be to love. not the BGR love, but the all encompassing, compassionate kind that makes you decide not to squish the ant crawling up your leg but to flick it off as gently as possible. That's a little hard to do when the ant has just bitten you, but it makes you shake yoru head in sheer admiration at what Christ did, doesn't it? We end a frienddship after a friend hurts our feelings, or "betrays" us. But Christ not only forgave us for scorning him, mocking him and TORTURING him, he even died for us. it's like being mauled by your pet dog and begging your mum not to kill it. except ten thousand times more wonderful. Which makes our petty hurts and pains seem so trivial and insignificant. And makes me want to try so much harder to love the people around me, no matter what they say or do.
Do i have the courage to just LOVE and LOVE and LOVE? Do i even have the ability to do it? I highly doubt it.
But i do have a Christ who does. and as he says "for my power is made pefect in weakness", i shall cling on to him with all my might, that i may draw strength from him and not fall into the devil's trap.
Have you ever hear the phrase "it's better to have loved and lost than never loved at all"? i guess it is true. no matter how hurtful it is when you "fall out of love", if you just bear with it, there'll be a day where you can look back, past all that hurt, to see the wonderful times you had had. And a big plus is that you learn to discern the real thing later on in life.

To do:
LOVE
Forgive
Forget
Do finish all my homework... cheerfully.