*angst*

Everytime i am severely tempted to gripe and groan and moan and whine about life,my conscience gives me this big poke in my side. And i realise that the less i moan about life, the better life seems to be. For example, because i tend to like taking a positive attitude towards life, everytime my friends complain about their lives, i think "thank goodness my life isn't as bad as theirs... mine can be silently borne...their's can't". And it's true. all around me, i have friends who have terribly stressed out lives, i can't help but feel very thankful for the life i have, which is only stressful in bouts. Besides, at least i have some measure of choice in my life. unlike some people, i have freedom of speech, freedom of expression and freedom in general.
But even if i don't have all the above mentioned, i do have the freedom of choice. i can choose to look at life as full of opportunities for things to get better, or a a steep decline into hell. It's like the metaphor of being dragged to the hangman's noose. you haven't got a choice to live or die, but you have the choice as to how you are going to meet death. you can face it with dignity and quiet acceptance, or you can struggle and cry all the way.which brings me to something else. You know how in the bible, it says that everything goes according to God's will? And yet it also mentions that God gave us a mind of our own to make our own decisions? For ages, it has always seemed imposiibly contradictory and illogical. How can you have freedom of choice, yet be doing someone's will?
But when i rethink it, it actually makes sense. God let's us do the ultimate choosing, the making of decisions. He won't force us to do something. He won't like, put an imperius curse on you (see, you learn stuff from harry potter too)and make you follow his will, he gives you the choice to follow his will. However, he is a most convincing persuader, simply because his will is always the best for us, so that somehow, you end up choosing HIS way. Just like persuading Jonah to preach to the ninevites, GOd persuades us to do his will. In the end, it's still best to accept his will and follow it with a positive mindset, seeing as to that rejection only brings about terrifying experiences inside whales.
To do:
Listen to that still small voice in me.
destress. i think i need to schedule a black out day