grudges

i've been holding on to a grudge for the longest time, and i think it's about time i let go.
Looking back, how much easier would life have been if i had just let it go way earlier, and got on with life. In fact, holding a grudge seems vaguely foolish, now. Yet, i find it very hard to forget it, especially when i deal with it every week. How do you tell yourself to trust again, knowing very well that you just might get hurt again? i've been talking to my friends, and i realised that the key to really truly letting go is to trust in God for the future. I don't know what will happen in another minute, but i know it is part of some carefully orchestrated plan of God's. in a way, that makes it easier for me to let go, because i know that God will never let the devil tempt me past my own limits, nor will he let me come to harm unless it's part of a bigger, better plan. And even though it's really really hard to try to forget, i will, because I want to be liberated from the cares and worries that come with nursing a grudge. i want to SMILE, and DANCE, and prance around as carefree as bambi, and be totally innocent of the evils of this world. I am being gullible because i'd rather NOT doubt what someone says. Because i want people to believe in me, i will believe in them. And because i'd want people to give me a second chance, i think it's only fair, right and logical to give others a second chance. And a third. And a fourth, fifth, sixth. until 77x7th. But i doubt that day will ever come.
To do:
Forgive ______. ( i copied joash's idea of keeping ppl annoynomous so as to protect them)
Forget all the bad stuff that people do/say, when they are not being themselves
Try not to do bad stuff, so that my 77x7 times of forgiveness wont expire.