Lean on him

God is so truly marvelous. Everytime i think i'll snap, everytime i think that my burdens are just TOO great, he comes in and takes hold of me and holds me tight, through it all. No wonder i have a positive attitude :P
It's true, though. That God gives me a positive attitude. Cos by nature i am a melancholic-choleric, which is a higly emotionally volatile person who is proned to high highs and low lows. He's like some sort of fire within me, keeping me alive, and everytime i worry, everytime i freak out over the amount of homework i have, he comes in and gives me this peace. It doesn't happen instantaneously, but it's like giving a big big sigh. as you exhale, everything just flows out, all the frustrations and all the anxieties.
something really cool happened today. I was feeling crabby and snappy and STRESSED, and i knew if i didn't do something about it, i'd explode, so i went into the room to do quiet time. I opened the bible and flipped, just flipped, not really looking for a verse, when a verse CAUGHT my eye.
luke 12:25
"Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life? since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?"
isn't that a LOVELY verse? doesn't it just speak to a very stressed out person? It was like God telling me personally to let go and let God. So i went back to doing my project with a renewed heart and mind:)
Guess what? I left my bible open when i went out to do my project, and when i came back, it was flipped to this verse:
" if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mulberry tree, "Be uprooted and planted in the sea,' and it will obey you." Luke 17:6
I have faith! I know God will deliver me through the crazy jam-packed week ahead,and let me run well for Cross-country, Debate well for MPP, score well for Math and find inspiration for Faith Acts.
We are embarking on a library project in Faith acts, "we" being Jeremy, Janice and me. I can't tell you how excited i am over the prospects of this. Sure, we are pretty busy, now, but i KNOW that God will deliver us through it, especially since this is HIS plan.
I am going to start tutoring this P6 guy soon, too. Michael says he requires loads of patience, and strangely, i'm not scared, especially knowing that i am not a very patient person. i think it's because i KNOW God will be behind me, and he will guide me and help me help this boy. Normally i would look with trepidation at embarking on such a solitary mission (it's one to one tuition), but just this ONCE, i love the idea of tutoring. It's God, i tell you. He does strange and wonderful things to our hearts and minds, enabling us to do things that we would never have the strength to do. Like forgiving, forgetting, changing and being cheerful.
I can't wait to "sink in" to this huge massive pie that i've baked for myself, with some Godly guidance.
Nez hasn't replied my email... i miss Nez! But i KNOW God is protecting her, and she will always be in my heart, so yeah.