you lifted me out of the depths

psalm 30:1-3
I will exalt you, O lord,
for you lifted me out of the depths
O Lord my GOd, i called to you for help
and you healed me.
O Lord, you brought me up from the grave;
you spared me from going down into the pit.

Never has a psalm spoken so much to me.Perhaps because i seldom read psalms, yet somehow, this passage seems made for situations akin to what i am going through now. God is so wonderful, words cannot express just how much he means to me. Whenever i stray, or whenever i hit rock bottom, he's always there, with his arms outstretched, for me to run, for comfort and guidance. Last night, when i was crying, he sent my younger sister in, to comfort me. Both of us are not touchy-feely people, yet there we were, clinging on to each other. And the marvelous thing is, SHE was comforting me. But it's not just that. God gave me the answer to my problem. As i was crying, and begging Lord to help me, he brought a verse into my mind.

" Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." philipians 4:6

So i prayed. i prayed for God to solve my problem because I was absolutely powerless and despairing. I prayed for strength, to live from day to day in his light. but mostly, i thanked God for being there for me when i hit rock bottom, and i thanked him for his unending love, and his Bible, his truth, that allowed me to know him.

"And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus." philipians 4:7

That night, amidst all the pain and confusion, i had one clarity, and one hope: God would see me through it, and everything would be all right. It was like my being, my soul, was infused with a certain sort of calm that was uplifting. That ball of pain that was inside of me had dissipated, and God's love, his warmth spread through me. It's like slipping into a warm bath, and you feel all your limbs loosen, and all you muscles relax, and even though you can't control your body's movements, you aren't worried, you relax as the water carries you, and lulls you to sleep.